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Eyes, Backs,Doctors and Spirits....
Eyes, Backs,Doctors and Spirits.... It all started the day after my dad passed... (Thursday) I noticed I could not see my nose... I paid no attention to it as I had other more important things on my plate but... The body breaks down when the body breakes down.. It does not check with your itinerary, your spirit, or your checkbook.... It just does its own thing... And in this case, two days latter, I found myself emotionally drained writing my father's eulogy and realizing that I was completely blind on my right eye! It hit me like a ton of bricks...What is wrong?....I can't deal with this now!... God I am scared.... What is it!...Emergency room... Sorry, nothing we can do... No, you can't have your co pay back!... Go see your eye specialist Monday... It was a rough week end... I couldn't mourn for my father as I was terrified of my future...passed the time working on the Eulogy with one eye... Monday... You have a Detached Retina! Friday... Funeral Monday... First eye surgery Thursday... Sorry...the surgery was a failure Monday... Second Surgery It took a total of 4 eye surgeries from June 26 through January 29.... And... Just when I started to see daylight, no pun intended, my back gave out on me. Severe Stenosis of the L4/L5... Translation my back hurts, my hips hurt, and my legs go numb... First Surgery was in April.. Felt great for two weeks and then.., it started back up! Epidurals Drugs Pain remains... Today I found out some new terminology...Bulging Disks.., New surgery being scheduled... Sooo...My spirit has taken a hit...have had it with Dr appointments, labs, MRI's, XRays, etc. And that is why I have not blogged.... I have missed you all of you fellow bloggers but felt so locked up within my own pity pot that I felt I had nothing left to contribute... I have taken the time to write this down in hope that it will lift my writers mental block... Tonight I am feeling hopeful... The doctor told me he was proud of how quickly I made my choice...I am not afraid of the surgery, I know that if the pain I feel now is going to be my new normal, then I have to know I did everything in my power to make it better... So here is to Eyes, Backs, Doctors and Spirits... LETS MEND THEM ALL!🌅 |
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I am sorry you are having an avalanche of health issues. Thank the higher powers they are fixable. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs.
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I know you have struggled. You have been in my thoughts and will continue to be. Positive healing energy your way. You will be well again.
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It sounds like you're making a comeback which is a good thing! Sorry you've had such a rough year but now it is behind you! Never ignore those who care for you you will have lost diamonds while you were collecting stones
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Thank you
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49, I am sorry for the loss of your father and I am sorry for all the health issues you have had and are having. I too have had many surgeries and live with pain every day. It is draining at times. But....there is a healing power in accepting it and learning to live with it. You are still living! Sending you my prayers and lots of hugs! If you need a friend or to chat, email me. Voice .
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